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Lucid Living

by Serigala

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1.
Homeward 08:26
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Often in my heart, yearning deeply. The bright distant coast of heaven. It's calling me. Will stay in its circle as long as it accepts me. Everything is so clear yet didn't you see. Back to glory, the flight is waiting for me. It was only delayed by the beating of the fading heart of me. When she finally calls, don't waste your time in me She still lives inside of me, My love will never cease to be. Then I will go, happy when I leave The bonds of the earth are something I no longer believe. Like a love that a stranger might receive. You cast your spell and I went under, I find it so difficult to leave. I am just a pilgrim and a stranger on this earth, I will run aimlessly to a place where there is no pain of birth. No longer free, no longer have a place to roam. But heaven is waiting, and I am going home. The gate is opening for me and I'm going home. To alleviate the inner suffering we had for so long. My corpse will remain as my soul will soar through the sky. One final glance back as I finally wave goodbye. As my diminishing heartbeat slowly faded away. I look in dismay at the night sky as we won't see another day. I gaze upon the landscape that we will finally leave behind. Cherishing the moment as we will wither away with our minds. Gazing upon our deaths right in front of our eyes. Releasing what might caused us to anxious and we will rise. 2x Once I heard how much she cared, Washed and ready, I am prepared. I call her my lady in my prayer. For the home of heaven, I want to go there. Back to the place where I belong. I'm going home. This is what I've been waiting for so long. I'm going home. Back to the place where I belong. I'm going home. This is what I've been waiting for so long. I'm going home. What glory is there, some have been told, The streets of the city are paved with pure gold, The tree of life is surrounded by the deep crystal sea. All its splendor is waiting for me. Reigniting the flames that burn bright inside this heart. Restarting the desire to live as we are no longer apart. Breathe the air of unlimited freedom as we will live forever. Rejoice as this is the night that we will always remember. Back to the place where I belong. I'm going home. This is what I've been waiting for so long. I'm going home. Back to the place where I belong. I'm going home. This is what I've been waiting for so long. I'm going home.
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Eunoia 04:46
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Portraits of hope reflecting off a blade that keeps calling my name. I can no longer bear the pain, Reflection of my self-contempt, Staring back at me with killing intent. A hatred that I cannot contain, Leaking through my lips and it broke my veins. Will I die in vain? Inhale the smoke from the burn that leaves you breathless Breathe the air that turns your life into a state of lifelessness Carry the weight of the world as they collect the soul of the soulless Watch as I fade away from your sight, reduced into nothingness Will you grab my fragile hands and levitate me higher? Will we be reborn as a pure entity without the sins of another? Don't you ever feel? We could be something real? And it's a long way forward, so put trust in me I'll give you my sanctuary as you've always done for me Don't you worry you'll be safe here with me I'll turn this eunoia into reality Don't you ever feel? We could be something real?
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Hiraeth 06:56
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Midnights still find me retracing the moments That led to our thousand tragedies, They were secrets left in a summer dream. Each precious second's wasted. Leading straight to our late memory. Our mental breakdowns, and last-minute goodbyes. At the break of dawn, wondering Where do I belong? I still hear your voice, echoing around this room. Leading me through a maze of a sequence flowery tomb. A homeward path that leads to nowhere. I wish I could see clearly amidst the fog surrounding me. I wish we could forget, and fade away. I wish we could forget, and fade away. Leave our body as midnight swallow us whole. Into eternity. I've been too long searching for meaning, a path that will lead me home. The world will let us go with scars, Deep embedded in our hearts. A pain that will always linger, Through our sleepless nights. The more I see, the more I feel alone. Where do I belong? Where do I belong? Midnights still find me rewriting histories With my broken hands, and blood as my ink. With every moment's passed, I lost my sanity. Midnight still finds me covered with guilt. Drenched in blood, tears, and my own miseries. There's not a single soul that I love left standing beside me. Come home, oh restless soul. Come home. Come home. Come home, oh tortured ones. Come home. Come home. Midnights still find me rewriting histories With my broken hands, and blood as my ink. With every moment's passed, I lost my sanity. Midnight still finds me covered with guilt. Drenched in blood, tears, and my own miseries. "Midnights still find me rewriting histories With my broken hands, and blood as my ink. With every moment's passed, I lost my sanity. There's not a single soul left standing beside me." "Oh, I've been searching for a path to come back home. Oh, I've been looking for a place to roam. Oh, I've been searching for a path to come back home. Oh, I've been looking for a place to roam." Oh, I've been searching for a path to come back home. Oh, I've been looking for a place to roam. The world will let us go with scars, Deep embedded in our hearts. A pain that will always linger, Through our sleepless nights. The more I see, the more I feel alone. Where do I belong? A question that was left unanswered. Where do I belong?
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Amegakure 05:00
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As far back as I can remember, You were always there, watching me slowly wither away Will you once again reignite this ember? That slowly dying inside this rotten heart of mine. Will you bless me? Inside this hidden rain? Will you save me? From what I will become? Pursuing the love that I have lost But I left myself neglected Pushing through with broken mind When you're devoid of feeling You just do as you're told Hatred is exhausting but it's all I'll ever know We spend our golden years living like ghosts Waitin for the day we cease to exists, gone from this world Our existence is fueled by mistakes That we made along the way Are we going to be forgiven or will they abandon us? I am a mistake, that you let live. I am an empty shell, that refuses to give in. Expose me for all that I am A broken vessel with no destination I am my own false witness When you're devoid of feeling You just do as you're told Hatred is exhausting but it's all I'll ever know Will you accept me in your embrace? Will you wash away my sins and let me decay? Will you find a place for me to rest? Will you find a place for me to rest? The tragedy is all we have in common And at times we allow it to swallow us whole Put me out of my misery I can only find solace in sleep The tragedy is all we have in common And at times we allow it to swallow us whole Put me out of my misery I can only find solace in sleep My mind is the trench in which I will be buried Deep within this soil A lifetime spent trying to be free of guilt A lifetime wasted As far back as I can remember, You were always there, watching me slowly wither away Will you once again reignite this ember? That slowly dying inside this rotten heart of mine. 2x
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For Hearth And Home 03:44
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6.
The Pathless Realm 03:53
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I live in my own seclusion Separation promotes survival We surrender inside this alienation Suffering is to give up the only home I ever had Outliers, I don't belong here The current state of existence provides a refuge for the weak To shield our eyes from the wicked side Living in a filthy world condemned by others We won't live for them, I watched the world abandon me, I force my ghost to write your name on the flower of the grave, inside this heart. We won't live for them, I appeared in your arms as if I was born there You promised you never let me go We won't live for them, I watched the world abandon me, I force my ghost to write your name on the flower of the grave I won't live for them, I appeared in your arms as if I was born there You promised you never let me go I am who I am A wanderer Don't find me in the cloud Nowhere to be found when I am below you Submerged in indifference Getting harder and harder to care Reject the world around me I'm tired of my heartbeat And when the whole world breathes together My lungs are my shield They reject the world around me I am the lone wanderer I'm scratching my skin In the absence we created The lines are blurred together like veins on my arm I hope I am not alone You are the difference between hell and home I hope I am not alone Living in a filthy world condemned by others I hope I am not alone I'm scratching my skin In the absence we created The lines are blurred together like veins on my arm I hope I am not alone You are the difference between hell and home I don't belong here The current state of existence provides a refuge for the weak To shield our eyes from the wicked side Living in a filthy world condemned by others We won't live for them, I watched the world abandon me, I force my ghost to write your name on the flower of the grave, inside this heart. We won't live for them, I appeared in your arms as if I was born there You promised you never let me go I'm scratching my skin In the absence we created The lines are blurred together like veins on my arm I hope I am not alone We won't live for them, I watched the world abandon me, I force my ghost to write your name on the flower of the grave, inside this heart. I'm scratching my skin In the absence we created And in this rotten world, You are the difference between hell and home
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Senjakala Baswara 09:44
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The night walks away with our memories. The stars lit up the sky as we finally are free. Fraught with a polarity of purpose and possibility And a reality rendered through rose-tinted fantasy. Fantasy. Fantasy. Fantasy. Fantasy. Every dusk is witness to a purging of the unnecessary A bittersweet end to what could have been, what would have been. Every dusk is a pregnant pause of what can be. Possibilities punctuated with improbabilities. Duality to self and the soul Trapped in limbo Every dusk we stuck in the realm of uncertainty 2x Take your time to find me. I can't promise where I'll be. These nights I feel alone, I feel useless. I feel so restless. I should have thought this through before I hold you down with me. I can't promise where I'll be. So try to find me. "Senjakala akhir nafas kehidupan, kekal dalam lara, hanyut dalam keheningan Bilur tertoreh dalam altar kekekalan, menyapa kelak menyabut semua insan Dingin terperangkap dalam asa ketidakpastian, dalam limbo merintih lirih mengais angan Jantung melayu selayak sekar terbakar bara, yang menari mencari makna di dalam pusara" The unbroken night has come for us all the living things. It's time for us to forsake all our lives and all their meaning. Let us walk within the path that guides us to the end of everything. Marching united as one entity to devour all the living. The night walks away with our memories. The stars lit up the sky as we finally are free. Fraught with a polarity of purpose and possibility And a reality rendered through rose-tinted fantasy. Every dusk is witness to a purging of the unnecessary A bittersweet end to what could have been, what would have been. Every dusk is a pregnant pause of what can be. Possibilities punctuated with improbabilities. Duality to self and the soul Trapped in limbo Every dusk we stuck in the realm of uncertainty Will you embrace me? As the night begins. Will you embrace me? As our hearts withering. Will you embrace me? I'll be your memory. Will you embrace me?
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Sanguinary 03:45
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Bask me in the glory of a tireless lust. Hunger of a seething warpath blessed by angel dust. Pierce me hatred, carved deep inside, spread as the blister rust. Fueled me anger, hold me higher as I deliver this thrust My fate is sealed As I raise my shield Quenching my thirst sparks my anger No intention to yield. Vanquish the light from my sight. Revealing the path of those who fought bravely to deny the Brightside. Baneful as my nature, We rose from the ashes of those who endure hundred years of torture. As we yearn for liberation, Reigniting the dying heart of true unbroken freedom. Let the flesh and blood flooded the realm of God. Into eternity reborn as a new sacrifice. (Sacrifice) Transcends reality and life. Become one with the source of the Alpha and Omega. Reborn as one Transcends as one 2x Deviancy of the human consciousness. Allopatric fusion of mortal souls Unified by the evolution of truth Empowered by dreams Liberated cerebrum Bask me in the glory of a tireless lust. Hunger of a seething warpath blessed by angel dust. Pierce me hatred, carved deep inside, spread as the blister rust. Fueled me anger, hold me higher as I deliver this thrust
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Eclipse 04:30
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We fade away, slowly we lost our way. We won't, live through a single day. Consumed by lies and decay. We fade away, slowly we lost our way. We won't, live through a single day. Consumed by lies and decay. We live between paradise and plague, Our lungs are struggling to breathe. We live tirelessly trying to survive the outbreak, These eyes are no longer believed. Perpetually living in a lie and deceive, As we going nowhere. All the past memories that left us with scars, The burden of the world is too heavy to bear. Our time has slipped away, Into the world of decay. As I can feel no more, Why don't you ever let me stay? Once more you've gone away, Leaving no trace fades away. My soul still craves for more, Will, you come back and steal me away? My lady winter, Please come and take my soul. As the memory wither, My body starts to lose control. My lady winter, Please levitate me higher. The agony that seeps into my skin, will swallow us whole. Look me in the eye, And tell me what it's like. To be blessed by the light. This is the eclipse of our life. Ascended. Levitated. Blessed by the guidance of the moonlight. Ascended. Liberated. Reborn as kings and queens of the night. 2x We live between paradise and plague, Our lungs are struggling to breathe. We live tirelessly trying to survive the outbreak, These eyes are no longer believed. Perpetually living in a lie and deceive, As we going nowhere. All the past memories that left us with scars, The burden of the world is too heavy to bear. My lady winter, Please come and take my soul. As the memory wither, My body starts to lose control. My lady winter, Please levitate me higher. The agony that seeps into my skin, will swallow us whole.
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Lucid Living 06:00
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Slowly walking down the hall, As my blood drips into the floor, On a starry night, we'll stay. Lock behind this frozen door, This wound cannot hurt me anymore. Let me suffer now, and decay. I've lost count of how many times, I wish I never made it home I never made it home. I've lost count of how many times, I wish I never made it home I never made it home. Blind, in the deepest night Reaching out, grasping for a fleeting memory Pride feeds my rotten heart And the thirst must be quenched to fuel the agony. That lives inside me. I've lost count of how many times, I wish I never made it home I never made it home. How much longer do I really have? When every step that I take, Is nothing more than a pile of mistakes. Slowly walking down the hall, As my blood drips into the floor, On a starry night, we'll stay. Lock behind this frozen door, This wound cannot hurt me anymore. Let me suffer now, and decay. Blind, in the deepest night Reaching out, grasping for a fleeting memory Pride feeds my rotten heart And the thirst must be quenched to fuel the agony. That lives inside me. I've lost count of how many times, I wish I never made it home I never made it home. How much longer do I really have? When every step that I take, Is nothing more than a pile of mistakes. I've lost count of how many times, I wish I never made it home I never made it home. How much longer do I really have? When every step that I take, Are nothing more than a pile of mistakes.

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released November 11, 2022

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Serigala Jakarta, Indonesia

Serigala is a one-man Melancholic Death Metal from East Jakarta, Indonesia formed in 2018.

Offering lo-fi production and blistering shoegaze-inspired black metal and death metal guitar riffs, with lyrics and liner note that tackles more deep emotive theme like sadness, depression, and the afterlife. ... more

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